A chip on the shoulder

Writer's Block: Call Me

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 17:04:09 GMT

Do you still use a landline at home, or do you rely completely on your cell phone?

my mom has a house phone but i dont even know the number so i never give it out,and i just use my cell. even though im starting to wish cell phones were never invented. damn phones!

Writer's Block: Gamer's Choice

Thu, 16 Apr 2009 16:38:57 GMT

What is your favorite old-school video game?

Submitted By 2hated2care

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Pokemon Snap HANDS DOWN!
old school for me lol. I LOVE IT!!
I still play it when i go to my bestfriends house

F.Y.I.

Sat, 04 Apr 2009 02:54:24 GMT

I have a kidney infection.

Just and F.Y.I.

Sun, 29 Mar 2009 16:46:57 GMT

Springfield High can suck my nonexsistant DICK!

Its taking over...

Wed, 25 Mar 2009 06:18:04 GMT

Tumblr is taking over my life. But i like it.

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Tue, 10 Mar 2009 20:54:27 GMT

im gone. there is nothing left of me.

Today[Jan 31st 2009]

Sun, 01 Feb 2009 06:54:59 GMT

I saw Trace Adkins at work. It was cool.

Writer's Block: Listening In

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 04:28:39 GMT

Even if you're not actively eavesdropping, you can hear some interesting things. What's the best conversation you've ever overheard?

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A couple days ago at work actually this guys came up to give there tickets and one of them said something like people who do what im doing should go to jail for a long time... i gave them a weird look and they returned it.

Guess what i did today.

Mon, 26 Jan 2009 04:26:36 GMT

I went to downtown nashville. Went to the Frist center for the photography exhibit. Oh before that i had lunch at panera. the after the exhibit we went to this store called Pangea and right next to that store is a theater and as we were leaving out walks Nicole Kidman and Keith Urban. my friend didnt see them but i did. I was happy/excited. I left them alone. didnt bug them but i did tell people i saw them lol. ALSO i got in a big fight with my mom. WHATEVER. fucking drama.

Writer's Block: Clothing Options

Sat, 17 Jan 2009 16:46:41 GMT

When it comes to clothes, would you rather be comfortable or fashionable?

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Why cant you be both? But i guess if i really had to choose id say comfortable. But i know you can be both...so i guess i need to try better to be both :P
Writers block didnt work....
i still have nothing to write about.

Im yours.

Fri, 16 Jan 2009 08:50:14 GMT

Stephen.
I love you so much. Its 2:42am and im listening to this song, and looking at our pictures and tears are falling because im so happy with you and love you so much. I cant imagine life without you. Ive never been this way with anyone ever. I dont think i could if i wanted to. I want to be with you forever. Everything about us is perfect in my eyes. No matter what anyone says we are meant for eachother and we will be together forever. Im glad people are finally realizing how much we love eachother, how much you care about me and leaving us alone. Im so comfortable around you,so free. When youre gone im not myself. Im alone no matter how many people surround me. After a year and 2 months..i still feel the same as i did when we first got together,i still get butterflies and think your the greatest thing in the whole world. Your kisses,hugs,touch is the best feeling in the world. Hearing you say I love you makes everything better. Im so glad we found eachother. I love you so much Stephen.

1:50 am

Thu, 08 Jan 2009 07:55:24 GMT

Well i cant sleep. and i have too pee. I also miss stephen,as usual. I havent posted in about 2 weeks so i just wanted to post something. Schools started back up, second day i was sick. great way to start out the second semester.

Why dont you and i get together..

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 04:05:16 GMT

I really miss stephen...ive been on the verge of tears all day basically.
this isnt good i need to be with him. i dont care if my friends and family want me to stay here...i need to be with him. I cant stand this...i shouldnt have stayed at his house for those 5 days...it makes it so much harder to not be with him...Quinns going to hate me...but im moving back in with him at the begining of summer probably. If she doesnt talk to me again..ever i just hope she knows im not leaving her.Im leaving my enviroment, i cant stand it here,physically mentally emotionally its just too much for me. Im sorry. I know your transfering schools and im the only one youll know..but i have to get out,im sorry.

It kills me for the rest of my life...

Mon, 15 Dec 2008 23:13:09 GMT

Ok so I fckn hate how mom makes me feel like shit because im trying to save up for a car and the family needs money and blahblahblah...Its my money..I shouldnt have to be supporting the fckn family!! Its not my damn Job!! I hate it how she does this..everytime..i get suckered into giving her money...FUCK! i want to move out so bad.

UPDATE:
Dec11th2008 Kathryn Had her Baby,,a boy named Gavin.
Dec12th2008 Clayton Turned 21. Stephen came over to see me :D
Dec13th2008 David[kathryns soon to be exhusband] went to jail for abusing her. Everyone went to help her get all of her crap out of there place..she lives with us and forrest now. Me and stephen shouldnt of helped..wasted our day.
Dec14th2008 Stephen went home..but we watched a movie[The Day the Earth Stood Still] I FINALLY started my birth control.
Dec15th2008 [Today]I went to the Doctors i have an upper respitory infection and a sinus infection. I took my prescriptions to walgreens...who knows if ill ever get them. Cashed my checks,gave mom the $200 that she gave me for one of the checks. She wants me to give more to help the family. Im pissed. I changed the password on my computer. No one is getting on anymore. I need to go the mall, and buy some things. I also need to go buy a lock for my door. The kittens wont be staying in here anymore. They peed on my work pants...thats a no-no. Im going to Stephens this weekend. The 19th-23rd. I really miss living there. Im trying to work all day on christmas so i dont have to be with my family. I really hope they schedule me for all day. I need to go get stephens christmas present...i guess im getting him books since he never plays video games anymore...but i really want to get him Mario Kart for the wii. Maybe i will...he needs more games anyways. Well ok...Ive got to go..i need to try to get to the store and the mall. Later!

Im not fckn addicted!

Sun, 09 Nov 2008 18:20:36 GMT

OK so get the fuck off my back! Just because i want pain pills...for PAIN! Jesus fckn christ. If i was addicted id steal them or buy them or whatever,im asking nicely..because im in mass amounts of pain..but no, because its me it means im addicted doesnt it! OMFG.

ok but what if?

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 00:50:07 GMT

ok...but.what just what if..you lose me in the grocery store...and i slip and fall, bust my beautiful head open,blood pooling around,people running....wouldnt you feel bad...
Watch me as i silently scream fingers dripping red....
Pray to any and every god you know that im not dead...
Please you say,oh please not today
is all you can say

Unfinished poem ill get back to this later.

Its been awhile have you missed me my dear?

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 00:46:58 GMT

Hey well..hmm alot has happened. Ive finally got a job. I got a hamster :D mine and stephens one year anniversary was on the 1st of november :D Sigh i love him so much :) Im joining the track team, woohoo, i cant wait :) im gonna get so fit and sexy lol. I hope i dont die :p Ummmm..hmm well i didnt really have anything to write about i just wanted to update a bit..so there you go :) ill post more when i get the chance and something to post about lol.

Quinn and I.

Fri, 10 Oct 2008 19:02:04 GMT

She's my bestest friend EVER! Ive known this chick since second grade, and not once have we gotten into a fight. We are so much alike but so different that it meshes. I love her. We can do the stupidest things and make them fun...We can buy eachother underwear lol and then model it to see if it looks good on our butts haha. We are always there for eachother no matter what. No matter how many times ive moved away and we've "lost contact" we still stayed best friends. We can sing the sappiest James Blunt song...acting it out..and just laugh our asses off and pray the neighbors wont call the cops for noise disturbance. I can tell her ANYTHING!...[except the name of the prostitute lol] Shes the best person in the whole world and i love her to death. If she died, i would miss her.

Writer's Block: Cheap Chills

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 19:43:32 GMT

Cheap way to relax....hmmm
Cuddle with my boyfriend while watching a tv show or movie.
Walk our dog...yeah thats right im calling Bella our dog, cus ive had to clean up her mess so shes half mine now:P
Bubble bath and music!!
Reading.
Sleeping.....
Myspace haha
Shaving my legs :P:P
Eating..oh yeah i love to eat haha.
Tan.
Hang out with friends at someones house.
Go running...
And thats all i can think of right now.

Writer's Block: Your Favorite Series: One Last Go Round

Thu, 28 Aug 2008 19:36:24 GMT

I would definatly pick freaks and geeks, or any old school nickelodeon shows, childhood relived lol.
I loved that shows and all the oldschool cartoons, we actually had a reason to get up early saturday morning for shows like Doug and rugrats lol.

I miss him :(

Wed, 27 Aug 2008 13:30:08 GMT

I miss stephen, its almost been 2 weeks since ive seen him last, im going this weekend till monday :DBut yeah. I justed wanted to post an entry before i forgot. I might post one or twwo over the weekend,idk. oh i will, to tell you about my new school, see ya!

I have internet now

Mon, 18 Aug 2008 15:36:34 GMT

Im living with my mom and we finally got internet at our new place. Yay. So ill be posting more.

Update

Sat, 09 Aug 2008 18:23:44 GMT

Saturday Aug 2nd: I found a very horrible sounding myspace message from stephen to elizabeth, I trashed the room, called my mom and left. That night i texted him that we needed to talk before he got home....he called me, i told him...he freaked out and started screaming at me saying it over, dont call me ever again. I freaked out and started crying he hung up on me, i started to hyperventilate. My mom comes home and i go to the ER..get medicine for my Infection[bladder/kidney], there till 2 am.
Sunday Aug 3rd: I call him around 10 am and tell him we need to talk but not today, i just have questions, but i cant talk today because i was in the ER till 2 am, he asks why i say i was sick. PAUSE then i say i want to say i love you but i know you wont say it back he says "Ok, bye" and hangs up. I start to cry. All day sunday was horrible.
Monday Aug 4th: He texts my mom and asks how im doing, then send a few texts back and forth then they talk on the phone. They plan for me and stephen to see eachother tues. I was happy/excited/Nervous. He texts mom later and asks her to have me call him. I do. we talk, make up...he had to get back to work, i had to leave for quinns.
Tuesday Aug 5th: I leave quinns that morning. DO some errands with mom and then he comes to get me at 2 or 3 and all i could do was hug him and try not to cry, he looked so happy to see me. We went to the mall...ate and saw the dark night at 4:30 Stayed at the mall until about 9 or so. Then he drops me off....We hug and kiss and say i love you, i go in, he leaves. Im happy.
Wednesday Aug 6th: I cant see him today him and mom work.
Thursday Aug 7th: I wasnt supposed to see him till tomorrow but then he was like why dont you just come tonight So I did. I love him so much.
Friday Aug 8th: He had to work until 6, he called me and asked if i want to go see pineapple express...so i put on my girl clothes[lol] and we went when he got home. We had a fight after we got home...about me getting on his myspace...he had changed his password...and i found it out. OLD password:iloveyou07 i put that. NEW password:nomore08 i would obviously be upset about that so i had sent him a little email..not bitchy or anything and...he got mad. He said it meant no more crap....i dont really believe him.Also he texted me earlier in the day and said Sigh i just turned down a party, i said what kind, why? He said Over at trudys new house, i told them no because i aint leaving you alone I said i dont care just go. Have fun. I can watch movies. He said Yeah right, like this wont bite me in the butt later and plus i would feel bad the whole time leaving you home, so i said why would it bite you later, he said because i dont like them then he called as i was replying...heres what i was going to reply: Of course i dont but ive learned that it doesnt matter how i feel, your gonna always be mad at me if i dont let you hang out with them, even though it really upsets me. And i sorta told him some of that. I dont think he cares, or understands. I love him, but hate our relationship. Is that possible? Not saying i dont want to be with him, i do. But i just want us to have a better relationship. He gets off in 45mins. I dont want to bring any of this up, i just want to be happy. i want us to be happy. ANd if that means keeping all this crap inside me then so be it. I dont want to, but sometimes you do what you dont want to do for the person you love.
Saturday Aug 9th: I think it was a good morning my stomach hurt...but he didnt seem to be in a wierd or bad mood, he hugged me a bunch. Im hopeing we'll go to the riverwalk and take pictures or something. I dont want to go to the dog park, because i dont want to stand around watching other people watching there dogs play with other dogs, kinda boring. I want it to be just us, walking together, holding hands. We havnt done that in awhile. Nor have we taken pictures. SO we need some new ones. Im thinking im going to make a new myspace. But let him have the password and email address so he can go on and check it if he wants. Hell be able to see all my friends and any messages and comments. Which is more than hell let me do, so he should be ok with that. Ill ask him today when he gets home. While we are walking. Well, i probably wont be on alot because where im staying doesnt have internet so if by some chance my mom lets me borrow her laptop and go to Cafe Coco or something ill post an entry. See ya.

9 months today.

Fri, 01 Aug 2008 17:07:46 GMT

Yep, today is mine and stephens 9th "monthiversary" Hes at work right now, yesterday was his day off. Its just like..whoa, its been 9 months already? But then again other times if feels like weve been together forever. I love him. It just sucks that i have to move out, i really want him to get a guy roomate when i leave, i dont want to have to be worried/paranoid that something is going to happen. Sigh.
Well anyways i might post later on today. See ya!

Ps. I love you so much stephen.

Nothing to say.

Sun, 27 Jul 2008 17:24:57 GMT

What we have here is a dreamer. Someone completely out of touch with reality.